The Axe

I have a seat on the MRT ride home. I want to rest my eyes and take a short nap.

But I have so many things running through my head right now.

I think I just had the worst Monday ever. I don't usually suffer from the Monday blues - perhaps just a little tired from two days of play and insufficient sleep - but today, a huge piece of bad news befell us.

You know I work in the music industry. In Singapore. The industry is not doing well. The axe fell.

Not on me.

I am thankful to God for that.

But I cannot help but feel guilty. Like I can and I should do more.

I can go on forever trying to analyse what our bosses were thinking when they made such decisions. It must be tough on them too.

Is it right that I am staying? After all, things are changing for me. My place could mean someone else's rice bowl.

Did I make the right choice in making my plans known? My boss has the right to know. But did my actions play a part in saving me from the axe? It is, after all, the more cost-effective decision.

But I know for sure that if I did get the axe (and I have very strong, valid reasons to axe me if I were the boss), I would rage so bad.

Was it a fair decision?

Others will have a lot of different opinions on what happened today, but I can safely say, I am glad I decided not to nap on the train ride home.

Haha.

Because now, I am much clearer on this issue. I would have made the same decision. For myself, at least. I cannot say the same for the others.

At the very least, I am now more at peace with my position in the whole axing (axis) of things.

That does not take away the sadness I feel for others, but I have to continue to put my trust in God.

He has a His own way of telling us what is better for us - it is up to us to accept the path or to try another one.

:)